What if ?

This distance between us is inbearable.
With you and because of you,
I have learnt how my love for you
is so divine that it hurts me without you by my side.
The distance between you and I
The miles between you and I
Though our love is strong
it is not enough to keep you away from my mind.
My heart yearns for you.
My eyes yearn to catch a sight of you.
Love and care conveyed through text messages are inadequate.
How long more is this wait.

Not sure what I am losing but I might just keep going.
Not sure why I am not giving up and what am I holding on to. 
Not sure if it's going to worth the wait. 
Not sure if it's meant to be but if it is, not sure how long it's going to be. 
Not sure if these questions are entitled to answers today but they definitely will, 
one day.
What if one day,
We realise,
We were never meant to be together at all.
Th irony of life is bringing me far from you
from the man whom I have loved 
and always will. 

Left

My heart is at such state that,

No apology can mend the hurt,

No promise can heal the pain.

Nothing ceases the heart from bleeding.

Nothing stops the tears from rolling.

My true love entitled me to this pain,

I am left in vain.

I have stopped believing love wins anything.

Because the love I gave,

to the man who is my everything,

never really meant anything.

Sometimes,
I wake up from a dream that seems so real

till yesterday.
Sometimes,

I wish this night and this darkness never ends.

because this emptiness is rare.

Like yesterdays

With words unspoken,
feelings unexpressed,
tonight's tears would know
how much I have missed all of you.
Memories held aback,
never did I know
I won't gain them back.
Gone are the days,
when we were together
every day,
every hour,
being there for each other.
Now, I am left alone.
A brand new path is ahead
without all of you.
I am standing right here,
not wanting to step ahead
nor move on.
Would you come back,
hold my hand, never leave it
and bring me through the path
like yesterdays?

Not Again.

Not again.
Secure the heart
before pain hunts and taunts it.
Remind the mind
before it loses its hold.
If at all the feeling is transient,
the tears will come and find you anyway.
For it has been a long time,
you have ever felt for anyone.
For it is now,
you have felt for him.
It would hurt but this is the price,
the heart has to pay.